A wish to work abroad

Part 2

After taking D.P.E I was so nervous yet excited to take the LET. Every split second counts so I registered straight away in PRC. It was my first time to be in the place and I was shaken to see the scenario. Seemed the whole place was an evacuation center. There were various line ups, some people were already sitting on the floor and some were passing to and fro. Worst was you can’t pass any direction freely and fastly otherwise you will hit someone’s back, elbow, head or face. Yes, that’s how crowded the place was. Full of excited and anxious people experiencing sweat, headache, nausea and cramps just to make themselves “licensed” to do their jobs.
Sometimes, I just wonder why our 4-5 years or even more in school and our diplomas are not enough to gauge our knowledge, skills and credibility to be accepted in a job. And the worst scenario is when you fail the licensure exam. I know you have another chances 5 more? ( not so sure) but thinking the expenses, the mental and physical fatigue and of course the melancholy that you’d feel when you fail again. These thoughts were actually bothering me when I was lining up to register for LET but then again the power of my desire to work abroad was too strong to ignore. Consequently, I pursued the registration.

I enrolled at CNU for my review but I was caught up with some other things that I wasn’t able to attend even once in my classes. However, I managed to collect the hand outs and did a self-review. (but I wasn’t quite serious this time) I just read each hand out once then I was done. I started to become a “lazy bum” and impatient thinking about the period of time that I have to wait for the board exam( 5 months) and another period to wait for the result ( 3 months or so). Suddenly, sea of regrets and depression started to swallow me. I was restless and envious of my friends who were already working abroad, who did not choose for a certain career/work but grabbed any opportunity as long as it’s outside the country.

I got baffled whether to pursue this or not….

(yawn, yawn, yawn sorry it’s almost 1 am. See u in my next blog)